|Great photo by Strep72.|
I've had major crap going on in my life since March. My husband and I separated. It started out amicable and quickly became vile. This was due to a woman who apparently thought it was okay to pretend to be my friend and then say horrible lies to my husband. She not only hurt me in the process, she hurt him. Anyway, the move was short-lived and I went back home. Now, well, things are tumultuous again. I take responsibility for my part in this, because basically it is pretty much all me. It's a topic for another post. But as someone else pointed out, it is extremely rare for these things to be 100% one person's fault. And I refuse to continue thinking that because I don't feel what others think I should feel that makes me a horrible person.
Also, thank you to my friends for letting me vent and tell you my hurts. But that doesn't make it okay to bash my husband. I love him and will always love him. Regardless of what happens in our marriage, he is a good man who loves with his whole heart. He will be there for anyone - even those who have betrayed and hurt him in the past. I often wonder at his ability to forgive. I appreciate your efforts to help me see that I'm valuable in my own way. And for those of you who try to encourage me and be there for me without saying horrid things about him, I truly appreciate it.
I don't know what the future holds. But I know that my husband, my kids, and I need people who want to be there for us and not perpetuate hatefulness. It doesn't make any of us feel better.